Whatever you may have said or written about it last year, or in any past year, he said to himself, this year you must actually write the book.
“What is this ‘he said to himself’ business? ‘More to see in 1983?'”
Never mind that, he said, vow that this will be a year without parentheticals…come crisply to the point. The clock has long been ticking, it is time to score some points, the shot clock winding down, shoot, score, ca-ching!
In a dream last night I had set up my electric guitar in the living room of Hitler’s house. My host had insisted, I’d gone to plug in in the living room. Hitler was busily rushing about with guitar cords. I didn’t notice what kind of guitar he had plugged in, but he was eager to jam.
“A jam session with Hitler?” the whoosh of a long sigh filled the air.
Yes, and in the dream I knew enough not to argue with him, knew he’d storm into the other room and come back with a pistol. He was famously psychopathic, I knew, and wouldn’t hesitate to show his irritation by shooting me in the face. The usual low stakes had been raised a bit in this jam session, I later thought to myself. I never heard him play, because I woke up before that point, but I suspect he played like he spoke.
“Don’t we all?” Some year without parentheticals (somebody said)
and forget ellipsis, too …
This is the year you do all the things you have not yet done, the things you gave up as impossible, improbable, too hard, too taxing. This is the year to unlearn learned helplessness, he said with waning faith. Meaning enough with the 57 varieties of brooding.
It is time to stop picturing yourself on the lip of that ravine in Vishenevitz just because the day, or year, dawns darker than expected. Just stop it. And stop talking to yourself, and pondering, with endless unprofitable invention, the slipperiness of the ground most of us are tap dancing on.
Suddenly, the music begins, and who is that coming overloud through the amp on the left side? We can only guess.