It’s best to be direct,
though it can be painful
pretending to converse
with someone uncannily channeling
a beaming Christian Bale as American Psycho.
It’s easier to watch a horror movie
than to find yourself inside one
trying to remain sincere
while looking into a funhouse mirror,
fun hogtied and bleeding,
gasping for breath.
It’s fun until somebody loses an eye.
Went in to check on snoring Sekhnet, who, on about three and a half hours of sleep, set off for a job, under cover of darkness, and returned to creep up the stairs ten or eleven hours later, as I was writing.
She was in a deep sleep when I went to check on her, make sure she had a sheet over her as she sprawled in front of the fan.
“Grandma picked a fig off the tree,” she murmured as I pulled a sheet over her shoulders.
“Your father’s fig tree?” I asked.
“Yeah, and she was picking a fig that wasn’t ripe and I said ‘grandma, that fig’s not ripe.’ And grandma said…” she mumbled, talking in her sleep.
“What did grandma say?” I asked her.
“I don’t know, you woke me up,” she said, and immediately began snoring again.
The mood is a slippery mother. Wrote in my “therapy notebook” the other day:
Wrestling with demonically limber moods,
you cannot count on their sportsmanship,
they grapple by their own rules,
as the frequent knees and elbows to the groin
will keep reminding you.
colors and books sent as colorful thank yous and updates
Bukowski puts people who insist they’re your friends high on the list of that swarm of trivialities that can kill quicker than cancer and which are always there.